By Veronica Dotson, London, Ky USA
PROM at 13 weeks + 2 days. Delivery at 20 weeks + 5 days.
Story added: 2007-06-15

Hi everyone, my name is Veronica and I just lost both of my babies
on June 1st. I'm not sure what to say so I will just tell you my
story. When I found out I was preg with twins I was scared,
nervous, and excited all at the same time. I have a 2 year old
daughter so we were always telling her about the babies and taking
her to dr appts with me. We wanted her to be excited and not feel
left out. Well I started having problems at 13 weeks. I had a huge
gush of fluid and started bleeding some. I week to the dr and
everything looked ok on US. I went back 1 week later and Sammy
(baby A) had almost no fluid left. They sent me to a high risk
doctor who explained that 3 things could happen. 1. I could
reaccumulate fluid and the tear would repair itself and both babies
would make it. 2. I would lose Sammy and David (baby B) would be
fine. (They were in different sacs) 3. I could go into preterm
labor and both would die. I was put on bedrest for 2 weeks, no
fluid came back. I had weekly appts and both of my boys were
growing good and had good heartbeats. At 20 weeks I had another
gush of fluid. I went straight to the dr and US showed normal fluid
for David and the same for Sammy. My dr thought I was still leaking
fluid from baby A. I had my follow up a week later. I told the US
tech that I was still leaking fluid and worried that it was coming
from baby B. Sure enough she looked and all of David's fluid was
gone also. My doctor said that I would go into preterm labor within
a week or two. He said I could wait for it to happen or I could go
back to my high risk dr and have them induce labor. He explained
the risk of infection was very high for me. My husband and I
decided to induce 2 days later. That was the hardest decision that
I have ever had to make. I delivered Sammy on June 1st around 5:16
am. He was stillborn. David came about an hour later. He was
alive for about 20 mins. His daddy got to hold him during that
time. I was still getting worked on so I didn't get to hold either
of them until later. They both weighed 15 ounces. They looked
beautiful and they were so tiny. We held them for an hour or so
before we let them go. I don't really know what to do now. Some
days I'm ok and others (like today) I just break down and cry all
day. It's just doesn't seem fair for any parent to deal with the
death of a child/children. Thanks for listening.

Veronica