By Jubeda Islam, London United Kingdom
PROM at 17 weeks + 6 days. Delivery at 21 weeks + 6 days.
Story added: 2006-02-24

Hello everybody, my name is Jubeda, i got prgnant with twins when i was 19 years old and me and my husband were both excited, We knew we were both young (both 19) and we knew that it would be hard for us, but all the excitement took over and we were really happy. The day we first found out that i was pregnant was 8 weeks into the pregnancy, i dont always get my period on time so i didnt think i was pregnant when i missed one. I started to get these little twinges in my stomach every now and then so my husband thought we should go to the docters to check it out. That morning we went to our local walk in clinic and were thrilled to find that i was pregnant, straight away they sent me over to the gynae section where i had my first scan. 2 hearbeats!! We were even more excited, we were told that we are having identical twins. I started taking my folic acid and rested alot as i always felt sleepy and tired. My husband treated me like a queen while i lazed about most of the day. When i was about 17 weeks past, i felt like a little bit of water came out of me, i thought i had lost all control of my bladder. I had no idea that this was my waters breaking, It was only a little amount and nothing happened after that so i ignored it thinking my bladder just gone abit weak. A week or two later, when i was 18 weeks and 6 days, i got out the shower, dryed up and sat up in bed while my husband got sat next to me, showing me what he had bought me from his shopping trip earlier on in the day. I was jus about to move back when a sudden gush of water started to come out of me. I was so shocked and scared that i coudnt even move, the whole bed got soaked and i was really scared. My husband called the ambulance, they took forever to get to me and i was taken into hospital, i started to get realy bad pains in my back and started to bleed. I knew from that moment that my babies wernt gonna make it. I sat in hospital and watched the scans, they showed me my babies, they still had a heartbeat but they didnt have enough water around them. i was told to terminate but i dont believe that one should stop the heartbeat of another as it would be the same as playing God. I was told that i might get an infection and i may not be able to concieve if that happens. My husband and myself did not wanna give up on the babies and we wanted to give them the best chance possible. We carried on with the pregnancy and i was admitted into hospital on bedrest. i stayed there for two weeks and the docters started to force me to have an abortion, i thought this was unacceptable and discharged myself. I staye don rest at home and my babies were still breathing and kicking. 3 weeks on, i started to get contractions, they were ok to handle for a few days and i thought it was normal, finally the day came when i couldnt move without contracting, my husband took me straight to the hospital as i started to bleed alot and the pains were unbearable. I knew i was giving birth to my babies and i knew they wouldnt survive, i was given loads of pain killers and injection in my thighs to stop the pain. I was also given gas which helped numb the pain. I felt the urge to push and i gave birth to my 2 little girls, 13 minutes apart. The girls were alive and they were breathing but their heartbeat was starting to slow down, our second angel passed away almost 2 hours after birth and our first angel passed away an hour after her sister. I feel that it is only right to give the babies as much chance as possible and not take thier lives into our own hands, God gave my little girls and God took them when they were ready to go. Both my little girls looked exactly like there dad, my second angel was alot smaller than the our first angel, although doctors confirmed they were not suffereing from ttts. My daugter were not forced out or nothing, they were born naturally and they died peacefully, no pain. i believe this is the way it should be if babies are not gonna make it. Please everybody that goes through PROM, please give your babies a chance. It is so difficult when they are gone and it is alot harder if you see them alive and you hold them until they pass away in your arms. This was the most painful experience that i have had in my life, and i feel like everything has been taken away from me, so everyone that is out there suffering from PROM, please dont let your babies go, try your best and hold on to them, sometimes even the docters are wrong..