By Jodi Noel, Boca Raton, Fla USA
PROM at 18 weeksDelivery at 18 weeks + 1 days.
Story added: 2005-06-07

hello everybody, after drying my eyes, i finally worked up enough courage tob tell my story. On april 6th my husband took me to the emergency room because i felt i had some abnormal discharge,after having an ultrasound the radiologist found my cervix to be 1.7 cm to short but nothing to worry about he said thats what caused the discharge. We also found out that were having a boy!! This made so excited and so happy to know that everything was ok; espically after our first pregnancy was lost to miscarriage @12wks on aug 14, 04. Two days later while at my routine ob visit, my dr. deceided to do an internal exam because he disagreed with the hospitals findings. While he was doing the internal he also deceided to remove a cervical polyp before i could tell him to leave it alone. I wanted him to leave it because i had a bad feeling of what might happen if he removed it. After he removed the polyp and checking my cervix, he thought my cervix felt normal but sent me to a perinatologist for a second opionion
less than 20 minutes later. Well even the peri thought my cervix was normal, but sent me home with limited activity because the dr. had removed the polyp. Two days later while laying in bed, my water broke. After wating in the hospital
for 2 hours, i was finally given an ultrasound where it was confirmed that my water broke. I sat there watching the moniter, with my little boy not being able to move, but still seeing his little heart beating as strong as can be. When tha dr. come in she had told me that very rarely do membranes repair themselves, and in 12 hours they will do another u/s to see if fluid is replenishing. In the morning my ob came the hospital to explain my situation to me. He had explained that my white blood cells were elevated the night before, which was why they were giving me anti-biotics. He was not sure if infection was before or after the rupture. He than proceeded to tell me that i had two options; i could be induced into labor or i could have a d&E. My dr. felt that because i was to emotional, inducing labor would not be the best thing for me. Two hours later he came back into to room to open my cervix before the d&e;i must explain that my cervix was completely closed,even after my water broke. It was about four hours after my cervix was dialated that they did the d&e,and took my little boy from me. I woke up and it was all over, my baby was gone,and i wanted god to have taken me along with him. I still cannot understand how your life and happiness can change over the course of 24 hours, it really stinks. I must admit i am glad i did wake up, i could never want to leave my wonderfull husband. It is however, only now that i am questioning my doctor and the hospital. I was never given a second u/s to check the fluid levels, nor was i given a chance to consult a second opinion; and after reading alot of prom stories, i cant
stop blaming myself for even allowing the doctor to do all of this; i just thought he was acting in my best interest, and doing what what was best for my health and safety. Has anybody else experienced
this, prom with no bleeding, and a closed cervix? I desperately need to hear from somebody who has because i cant help but think of all those women who have experienced
prom, even earlier than me. Maybe something could have been done, maybe if we could have taken the lets wait and see approach, maybe i could have hung in there like alot of the mommies that delivered their babies prom, and were able to see them gain weight, grow,and evevtually take home my baby. I feel such denial, such a loss, and so much guilt for letting doctors deceide whats best for me. I hope i am not the only one feeling these feelings. If anybody else has experienced something similar please e-mail me. I thank you all for allowing me to vent, it made me feel a little better.
Hugs and love to all
jodi noel,
I am mommy to Ethan Richard Noel, who who became an angel on 4-11-05