By Melissa, Center Valley, Pa USAI found out i was pregnant in November, about 2 months after I got married. We were both scared and completely excited.
PROM at 21 weeksDelivery at 21 weeks + 3 days.
Story added: 2000-05-24
Everything was fine until April 3, 2000, I was exactly 21 weeks. I was having trouble sleeping and decided to go to the bathroom. I knew something was wrong as soon as I stood up. as I could feel some wetness running down my leg. Once I go to the bathroom, I realized that I was bleeding and felt something unusually large 'fall' from me. I now know this was the mucus plug.
My husband called the doctor who was thankfully on call, and off to the hosiptal we went. I knew that bleeding was a problem, but since this was my first pregnancy, I had no idea the seriousness of the situation.
After an internal exam, ultra sound, and some blood work I was admitted. Since I was bleeding so much, they didn't know if my water was broken. The ultra sound showed that I was just a little low on fluid. Later that day, after another ultra sound, they did an amnio to test for infection as well as injecting blue dye into the placenta. The theory was that since I was bleeding so much, they would insert blue dye and a tampon. If the tampon was blue I had ruptured.
Well sure enough, after two tampons, it was blue. The doctor's came in to tell me my options. Continue on bedrest and hope for more fluid and no infection, or end the pregnancy. We were given the stat's of 50/50 survival if i could make it to 24 weeks... ( i am sure you have heard all of this before).
Unfortunately, both my husband and I did not know that it is possible to continue the pregnancy with a successful outcome, and we signed the papers to 'terminate'.
All that night and the next morning I was having strong contractions and a very sensitive stomache. It was determined that I had an infection and like it or not, they had to terminate the pregnancy to save my life.
Thankfully, it was a relatively fast delivery. I was induced with 2 prostaglandin inserts at 7:30pm and delivered my sweet girl at 1:36am on April 5, 2000.
It has been almost 6 weeks now and I still can't stop crying and re-living the two days over and over again. I kept thinking that maybe I really didn't have an infection and could have continued the pregnancy, if only I knew it was possible.
Looking back just two weeks ago, I truly believe I was going crazy. I went back to the doctor who told me that the placenta was completely infected. This is my only bit of sanity that I have. I just know that if the doctor said that I didn't have an infection, I would not be able to live with myself.
This has changed every aspect of my life. My heart is broken. I pushed my husband away, and am not sure how to love him anymore. I pray for my daughter that she will forgive me someday. I pray that I can love beautiful husband again. I pray that God will bless me with another child. At this point I view myself as a failure as a mother, wife, and woman.
I am sorry this is a sad posting, I had not intended it to be.