By Kaitlyn Michael, USA
PROM at 18 weeks + 2 days. Delivery at 20 weeks + 2 days.
Story added: 2004-04-29

My husband and I were so excited after learning of our pregnancy and even more so when we found out there were twins. I was so sick the first 3 1/2 to 4 months with morning sickness so when that passed we finally got to go out looking for nursery ideas. By my 18th week I had a dr's appt at our perinatal specialist for our monthly ultrasound. My husband drove but when we arrived and I got out of the car my water broke. I was devastated we immediately ran inside and they did the ultrasound to find out our sons water broke and nothing was left. They sent me right over to the hospital and gave us the news that most likely I will go into labor with him but our daughter was still in her sac and ok. They kept me in the hospital total bedrest for a week and Michael (our son) was hanging on he still had strong heartbeat and no signs of labor. I prayed every day to please at least get us to the 24wk mark were they will at least give us the steroids for there lungs. After the week in the hospital they sent me home for continued bedrest. Advised that if I make it which they stated was unlikely to 23 weeks they will bring me back to the hospital. Unfortunately we only made it one week at home. My son was delivered on my 20 wk 2 day. They said our daughter (Kaitlyn) was still in her sac with fluid and no signs she will deliver. My doctor stated he needs to tie the cord and brought me into the OR. While he was doing the procedure I felt to much pressure from the speculum I asked him to stop but he wouldnt it got so bad I was begging him because of the pain but then it happened he pushed to hard and broke the membrane of our daughter. His response was I dont think she will now make it. He finished tieing the cord and they admitted me back into the hopital. Two days later at 20wks 4 days i went into labor with her. We have since buried both our children yesterday . I feel guilt of what could I have done, pain and hurt by missing them so much, anger towards the dr for not listening to me, and so much jealously to those who have children (which I believe is the worst feeling since I know it is not fair to those who are so blessed). This was my first pregnancy and now and so scared when we decide to try again on how will I go everyday without wondering if it will happen again. I would love to here from anyone who has lost and able to then deliver a healthy baby and how long they waited to try ..