By Hanna Kim, Vancouver Canada
PROM at 17 weeks + 3 days. Delivery at 23 weeks + 1 days.
Story added: 2004-02-02

My little angel Emily has gone to heaven yesterday on Jan 30, 2004.

It was a girl I always wanted to have a girl.
I had a big car accident that I was lucky to survivied but by the accident my water was broke (17 week of pregnancy) and none of my amniotic fluid was left out I stayed in the hospital a week could not even move, even could not go to washroom as well, but the miracle did not happen to me. The fuild was leaking everyday and did not stay in the sack, the doc told me probably I have a big tear in the sack that won't seal by it self. My fuild was always low 1cm - 1.8cm always lower than 2cm. But I did not want to give up on this baby and wanted to give baby at least of chance that baby can survive so I wanted to wait until 24 weeks, I've heard that the baby can survive after 24 weeks. But I started to have some bleeding and cramps and fuild was flowing out even day time. I felt that something wasn't right. And the movement of baby was decreased and I could not feel any kicking about 3 days. When I had an u/s the baby was not growing since 18weeks. I decided to deliver the baby and was hoping that baby could survive b/c I was close to 24 weeks.

The labor started around 11:45am and I delivered my little angel at 3:15 pm. We were expecting to have the late night but the baby came out earlier than the doctor expected.
But the little Emily did not make though the contraction when the baby was born, her heart beat was not beating as more.
I hold her and hugged her and could not make her go until night and I finally had to let her go.
She was so tiny compare to her age she was 23 weeker and weighed only 520 g.
she was so much like her brother Samuel.
I thank God for showing her sprite going away, I saw sparkly silvery powder was flowing in the air about 5 seconds and gone. I asked my sisters and my mom that they can also see the sparkly things that in the air but they could not see but I saw it very cleary and I felt that that was her soul taken by angels.
Miracles happens but I guess not this time for me and my lovely beautiful baby my girl Emily.
Bye Bye Emily I love you so much.