By Amy, San Diego, CA USA
PROM at 17 weeksDelivery at 17 weeks.
Story added: 2004-01-10

It is the one month anniversary since I lost my baby and I am finally getting around to posting my story. My membrane broke at the mall while I was sitting down eating. Like so many stories I have read (I have been reading all of them for a month) when I went to the hospital the test for amniotic fluid was negative and they sent me home to rest. (They should get rid of that test because I have not heard of anyone that had a positive). I rest for the weekend, but could feel leaking every now and then. I went to my OB on Mon. for an U/S and my fluid was completely gone. My baby was still alive and the heart beat was 150. A perinatal specialist told me I had a choice of D and E/C or induce labor. I opted for the D and E and they did the procedure the next day because of fear of infection. I am full of grief and guilt over this. I have gone from being depressed and sad to severly agitated. I feel like they took my baby too soon but four different DR's told me that the baby would not make it without amniotic fluid. Like so many women, I have no answers because I presented no signs of infection.

My only hope is that I get pregnant again soon. I want to ask how long I should wait to get pregnant because I am hearing different answers. I don't want to increase the chance of another miscarriage by getting pregnant too soon. Does anyone have any advice or encouragement. Did the D and E/C increase my chances of miscarriage for the future? I am also very frieghtened that this will happen again. I am so consumed with fear and impatience to start my next cycle that I can't even concentrate. I am afraid that I won't start my cycle because I am so stressed. Thank your for any advice. These stories are helpful for my recovery.