By Dominique, Sacramento,CA United States
PROM at 23 weeks + 2 days. Delivery at 23 weeks + 5 days.
Story added: 2003-12-10

I haven't went over the events that happen about my daughter since it happened. When I found out I was pregnant I knew I was going to have to be extra careful because I had lost my son 2 years earlier. My doctor put in a cerclage when I was 16 weeks so I didn't worry anymore. I was doing find until I woke up Saturday August 30 and I got up to go to the bathroom and a gush of water ran down my legs. I called the advice nurse and she told me to come to the hospital. The doctors did a pH test and told me that indeed my water had broke. The doctors said that it would be best for me to stay in the hospital so I wouldn't get an infection. I started having labor pains 2 days later. My doctor said that my white cell count was up and I had an infection in my uterus and if they stopped my contractions me and the baby would both die. A few hours later a noenatalogist came to talk to me and my boyfriend about the chances of my baby's survival. He told me that at 23 weeks it was a 40% chance of my daughter surviving and if she did lived it be almost certain she would have a lot of disabilities. My boyfriend wanted to let her go but at first I was being selfish. I couldn't let her go. I had waited my whole life for her.In the end I realized that God had called her home even before I set in my mind to let her go. We decided to name her Rebecca after my great- grandmother. Almost 10 hours later on September 2, 2003 I finally had my beautiful daughter. She struggled in this world for 47 minutes before she said her farewell. Even though it hurts so much to have both of my kids gone. I know that there is no safer place they could be but with God. I know that one day they will be given back to me. I have put having a baby on hold right now but I haven't gave up completely. One day I believe God will bless me with a child