By Deepa Anoop, Bangkok, Thailand
PROM at 22 weeks + 4 days. Delivery at 22 weeks + 5 days.
Story added: 2003-09-21

Hi friends

I got back from the hospital last evening and it is still difficult for me to fathom what happened. 36 hours ago all was well, I was working in the office.I was finally feeling the baby move in the past few weeks. This was my first pregnancy and I was very relaxed all through, living normal life, being careful but not too worried. I was not even that attached to the baby at first since it was an unplanned pregnancy. But recently I had started looking forward to the second ultrasound and as I felt the baby move, I was beginning to connect to it more. Now, I feel so cheate..finally as I was getting excited, i lost the baby!!

I had been relaxing after a day at work on Thursday, having had abdominal pain all afternoon. I got up to go to the loo and there was a 'pop' and my water broke. I was rushed to the hospital immediately, but the doctor told us the chances of the baby surviving are very slim. So next day, even when the heart was beating, we agreed to induced labour (my husband was very scared, that infection would set in if we waited for the baby to die , it was sucha tough decision to say ok to MTP) and 4 hours later, i delivered a baby boy....... dead!.

Now, I feel so empty. I can still feel the baby in me I feel.

Reading stories on this site helped me a lot. Thanks friends.God Bless you all. Hope you have healthy babies.
I know I will be dead scared in my next pregnancy of each pain or feeling..
Please pray for me.
Deepa