By Chiara, Brescia Italy
PROM at 20 weeksDelivery at 21 weeks.
Story added: 2012-03-06

First of all I would like to let you know how helpful this site has been to me. I am Italian and as my sad story occurred, I have browsed the web to find a support, which I finally found here. I have not overcome it (I am convinced I never will), but reading your srories has helped me: at least I know I am not the only one... My story dates back to may 2011. I was 20 wks and was the happiest woman in the world. We had tried for 2 years to get pregnant, and finallly we found out it was a beautiful girl. One evening, after celebrating the event with friends, I went to the toilet before going to bed. After peeing, I noticed theat something kept on flowing down. I am pretty sure I lost all my fluid in that moment. I called for an ambulance and entered hospital. I was told that I would probably get into labour either in the next 48 hours or in the next week and that it was definely too soon. Of course they kept me there, but I was told they would do nothing for that week, considering it a sort of waiting period. 6 days later I woke up with fever, fluid had become bad and stinky a couple of days before and I had pains. In the afternoon I got into labour, which stopped soon. After some hours the doctor told me my young girl was no longer alive and induced the birth. I do not know if I did wrong, but I did not have the courage of watching her. Sometimes I regret it and feel guilty; sometimes I think it would have been even harder to go on with her face in my mind. After nearly a year, I think of her every moment of every day; even when I am working or speaking or doing anything else, she is always on the background. Like the majority of you, I do not know why it happened. I was positive for streptococcus agalactiae, which I have been told is very common. So I do not know. A couple of wks ago I found out to be pregnant again, but I do not know why I feel it will happen again. Thank you all again.