One Saturday morning I spent the morning
sitting on the couch playing on the
computer...well, I decided to go finally
take a shower...I was just stepping into
the bath tub when I had this huge gush
of fluid...I though maybe I'd peed on
myself so I just went about my shower
but I was still gushing fluid every
couple mins. So, after the shower I
called my husband and he came home from
work and we went up to the emergancy
room. The doctor did an ultra sound and
said everything looked really good...and
he even took a sample and did a like a
culture thing on a slide...and he said
there wasnt any "ferning" on the slide
that would indicate amniotic fluid...so
we went home thinking everything was
fine and our baby was going to
ok...well, I went back to work meanwhile
leaking...and 2 days later we went in
for a regular check up and they did
another ulatrasound and the doctor got
very concerned b/c there was no fluid
around the baby. The doctor was very
negative about everything and pretty
much knew that the situation was not
good. So, he put me on bedrest until I
was 24 weeks and then they were going to
admit me to a high risk clinic.
At 22 weeks I woke up having
contractions....so I called my husband
and told him that I thought I was going
into labor....he hurried home and we
went up to the hospital....we waited in
the waiting area for an hour before they
saw me.....then they had me in this
little room for another hour and a half
all by myself because they wouldnt let
Gary be back there with me....it was
abosolutly horrible!!!!!!! By then I was
having full blown contractions every 2-4
mins...and they were hard!!!! Finally
they checked me and in a half an hour I
went from 2 cm to 7 cm...So, they
wheeled me to labor and delivery...and
started me on pain meds....it was the
best thing ever!!!!!!!! Instantly the
pain was gone and I could sleep....well,
by that night my contractions had
completly stopped and I stayed at 7 cm
dialated for 3 days....They gave me two
rounds of steroid shots to help develop
Zachary's lungs...and by next night they
moved me to antipartum....and they took
me off the ivs...and just kept
monitoring me....So, Thursday-Saturday I
was doing really well...Zachary was
moving around a lot and his heart beat
was so strong....By saturday night I
started bleeding really badly....the
doctor came in and checked me and said
that I had completly efaced and dialated
and that I needed to start pushing...so,
once again they wheeled me to labor and
delivery.....I just remember laying
there thinking, "this is it...we are
having him tonight." It was a very tough
feeling to have...When I was first
pregnate I always thought that time
would be exciting and joyful...but it
wasnt at all...So, I asked to have an
epidural...and they were gonna do that
but then Zach's heart beat started to
drop so they told me that I needed to
just start pushing....So, I probably
pushed for 20 mins....and Zach kept
tilting his head so he kept coming out
with his shoulder and arm...and not
head....That was probably the hardest
thing to see my son's hand...and in the
back of my mind I just knew that this
was not going to be the ending that we
wanted. So, then they decided that they
were going to probably have to do a
c-section....so they prepped me...and I
guess as soon as they put me under my
body relaxed enough and they got Zach
out.....They tried to get him to breath
for 15 mins and my husband just told
them to stop...b/c his lungs just hadnt
developed enough...and they told us that
even if I had carried him full term his
lungs still wouldnt have been developed
b/c he'd been without fluid for so long.
So, my husband got to help baptise
him...and we got to spend 2 hours with
Zachary....When my husband handed him to
me I felt him take a couple breaths and
then I just knew that he was at
peace....He was so tiny but so
perfect....He had 10 fingers and 10 toes
and he looked just like my husband. It
was so incredible to hold him and see
God's creation. This was a very hard
thing for us both to go through but we
are so much stronger in our relationship
with eachother and with God that I just
thank Zachary for helping us and brining
us so much joy for the short time that
he was with us. and We WILL see him
again someday.
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