We lost our son, Rex at a little over
20 weeks on 12/2/07. My pregnancy
(this was our first) was very normal
up to the day of our loss. I was an
exersize nut, and insisted on going to
prenatal aerobics class and prenatal
yoga classes during the pregnancy to
stay in shape. I worked a full-time
desk job and stayed very active during
the pregnancy. I felt our little Rex'
movements earlier than most at 14
weeks, and he remained a little strong
fighter until the very end.
On a Friday evening, after going out
to dinner, I felt crampy and
exhausted, and decided to go to bed
early. Now that I look back on it,
the cramps were coming in waves, and
were really labor. Throughout the
pregnancy I fought constipation, and
at midnight, got up from what I
thought were constipation pains. I
got to the toilet, and that's when my
water broke with a horrific gush. I
looked in the toilet and saw blood
mixed in with the amniotic fluid.
I called my OB/GYN and she told me I
was having a miscarriage. I was in
disbelief and we went to the
hospital. By the time we got there,
most of my fluid was gone, and I was
bleeding a ton. The Dr.s told me that
they could not save the baby due to
his age, and had to induce. I knew
from the sight of all the blood that
things were not going to be good.
Almost a day and a half later, I went
into full labor and delivered him.
His heart kept beating until just
before his birth.
The Dr. said I had an abrupted
placenta, and at first thought I had
an incompetent cervix. I went to a
perinatologist and he said he doubted
it was a cervical issue, and diagnosed
it as PPROM. They were unable to
diagnose what caused it. I have had
tons of tests, all with normal
outcomes.
I am currently trying to conceive
again since the Dr.s say that they
think I will have a more positive
outcome next time around. Even if
there was no cause, I know that I will
not be exersizing like I did during
the first pregnancy, nor will I do
alot of the physical things like
cleaning. I will simply go to work,
come home, sit down, and sleep - in
other words, take it real easy. We
desperately want to start a family,
but miss our little angel so much at
the same time.
I am so thankful to have found this
community containing so much hope for
those like us who have suffered such
tragic losses.
We hope we will become pregnant again
soon, and with the power of positive
thoughts and prayer, we will have a
happy healthy baby.
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