On Friday 27th Jan I was taken to
hospital by ambulance with major
cramps that was thought to be a
urinary track infection. I was lying
there for 4 and a half hrs before a Dr
came to see us. I was given meds and
sent home with no ultrasound nothing.
I rung my Obs who was pissed that they
didn't do a Ultrasound, so he arranged
one. On my way down I felt a pop and a
gush of water and when I got out of
the car it ran all down my legs. It
was my waters breaking with no
explanation at 14wks & 5 days.
They did the ultrasound and I had a
leak, but there was still a heartbeat.
They rung my Obs who told us which way
it could go but cause there was no
pain and no blood I was to go on total
bed rest for the weekend and I was to
come in and see him on Mon and he
would ring me over the weekend. My
tummy had gone from 102.5 cm to 94
then over the weekend it had gone to
98 so we were hopefull that it may
have sealed. The ultrasound today
showed there was no amniotic fluid at
all but bubs still had a heartbeat
which had destroyed us both, to think
our baby is perfectly fine except for
the fluid. For the rest of the week we
had a scan every second day to see
what was happening and by the end of
the week we knew we had to make a
decission. I had trickles of water
coming out of me all week. Her last
ultra sound we remember looking at her
and she had the hiccups.
We were given the options to keep
going with the pg and speak to a team
at a hospital about the effects of
prom so early into a pg such as birth
defects, but we couldnt' do it to
her.
We were booked in to have labour
bought on and I will deliever our 16
week old bub. My DH wanted to have a
scan on the day or the day before just
to make sure we were making the right
choice but I just couldn't face to see
our Angel with its heart still beating
away and to know what I we were about
to go through.
I delivered our Angel on Tues 7th Feb
2006 (16w 2d) and she was so
beautiful, the nurses were fantastic.
We spent over an hour with her and
didnt want to let her go but knew we
had to. They kept me in over night due
to a high temp but I was glad as I
felt like she was in the room with me.
To say it has ripped out our hearts,
well its to late we are just so numb
and cant believe how life can be so
cruel. To take 4 yrs to get here and
something that no one can control just
happens and can happen at anytime.
And the thought it may happen again
scares me to no end!
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