It was January 23- My boyfriend and I
had been at a friend's house for the
evening. All of a sudden i started
feeling hott- then I fainted. My
boyfriend bought me outside for air-
and tried to convince me to go to the
hospital- but Im stubborn, so i did
not go that night. The next day i went
to the doctors to see what was going
on with my body. They did a bunch of
tests- and came to the conclusion, I
was 6 weeks pregnant. I was so excited
and so nervous. It felt unreal until 1
month later when we had our first
ultrasound. He was so tiny- And it was
the first time we saw him "wiggle". My
boyfriend was laughing and i started
crying. Everything seemed normal- i
was relaxing and taking my prenatal.
Then around March 9th(2006) i started
bleeding- I went to the doctors, and
then to the hospital. They weren't
sure why i was bleeding. They did an
ultrasound and he was fine- heartbeat
strong(147) and he was moving around.
I was put out of work then and put on
bedrest.
Everything seemed fine for another
month, it was April 7th(my birthday)
and i started bleeding heavy again! I
went to the hospital- and they did an
ultrasound and a swab and sent me home
with a normal ultrasound. The next day
i went to the grocery store, and i
started to feel a wetness, when i got
home there was blood everywhere! I was
a wreck. I went back to the hospital
and was put in over night for
observation. I was passing pretty
large clots- which was very scary.
They told me i had "Placenta previa".
I was put on bedrest. April 13th i
remember feeling a gush of water in
the middle of the night- i had no idea
what it was.
April 19th I went to the doctors for
an ultrasound- to see the sex- and
they couldn't see the sex- and we
could barely see him. I had no fluid
around him. I went home on bedrest-
Not knowing anything about "prom"- not
knowing what the outcome would of
been.
April 28th i went to Albany Medical
Center, about 45 minutes awy from
where i live. They told me about what
had happened, and told me his
umbellica cord was coming unattached.
And i had started showing signs of
infection. They schedueled my labor to
be induced May 2 2006- @ 1 o'clock. It
was the worst tuesday of my life.
George William- the little boy i had
wanted soo bad was born that day @
2:30. I didn't get a chance to see
him, i was on too many drugs and way
too depressed. The funeral was the
next week. The friday before Mother's
Day. It was horrible. I have such a
hole from my little man leaving. I
miss him so much- and would do
anything just to spend my days with
him here- or still in my belly. My
first due date was September 25, but
then they said he was 2 weeks ahead.
The Pain from losing my little boy-
will never go away. Even if/when i
have more children, there will always
be a little hole in my heart where he
should be. I'm accepting the fact more-
The nights are better, its just
waking up and realizing he isn't here
that's hard. He knows his mommy and
daddy love him and would do anything
to have him here- give anything. Its
been almost 3 months since he's been
gone. And it seems like people are
forgetting, and avoiding me- It drives
me crazy. But... what am i gonna do?
No one knows my little George the way
his mami did!
I just wanted to let whoever started
this page know- You really have
helped, i'd don't know where i'd be if
i couldn't talk to all the ladies.
They are the only ones who know what
im going through, what many of us are
going through, unfortunately. And i
pray for us all!
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