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Hello everybody, my name is Jubeda, i
got prgnant with twins when i was 19
years old and me and my husband were
both excited, We knew we were both
young (both 19) and we knew that it
would be hard for us, but all the
excitement took over and we were
really happy. The day we first found
out that i was pregnant was 8 weeks
into the pregnancy, i dont always get
my period on time so i didnt think i
was pregnant when i missed one. I
started to get these little twinges in
my stomach every now and then so my
husband thought we should go to the
docters to check it out. That morning
we went to our local walk in clinic
and were thrilled to find that i was
pregnant, straight away they sent me
over to the gynae section where i had
my first scan. 2 hearbeats!! We were
even more excited, we were told that
we are having identical twins. I
started taking my folic acid and
rested alot as i always felt sleepy
and tired. My husband treated me like
a queen while i lazed about most of
the day. When i was about 17 weeks
past, i felt like a little bit of
water came out of me, i thought i had
lost all control of my bladder. I had
no idea that this was my waters
breaking, It was only a little amount
and nothing happened after that so i
ignored it thinking my bladder just
gone abit weak. A week or two later,
when i was 18 weeks and 6 days, i got
out the shower, dryed up and sat up in
bed while my husband got sat next to
me, showing me what he had bought me
from his shopping trip earlier on in
the day. I was jus about to move back
when a sudden gush of water started to
come out of me. I was so shocked and
scared that i coudnt even move, the
whole bed got soaked and i was really
scared. My husband called the
ambulance, they took forever to get to
me and i was taken into hospital, i
started to get realy bad pains in my
back and started to bleed. I knew from
that moment that my babies wernt gonna
make it. I sat in hospital and watched
the scans, they showed me my babies,
they still had a heartbeat but they
didnt have enough water around them. i
was told to terminate but i dont
believe that one should stop the
heartbeat of another as it would be
the same as playing God. I was told
that i might get an infection and i
may not be able to concieve if that
happens. My husband and myself did not
wanna give up on the babies and we
wanted to give them the best chance
possible. We carried on with the
pregnancy and i was admitted into
hospital on bedrest. i stayed there
for two weeks and the docters started
to force me to have an abortion, i
thought this was unacceptable and
discharged myself. I staye don rest at
home and my babies were still
breathing and kicking. 3 weeks on, i
started to get contractions, they were
ok to handle for a few days and i
thought it was normal, finally the day
came when i couldnt move without
contracting, my husband took me
straight to the hospital as i started
to bleed alot and the pains were
unbearable. I knew i was giving birth
to my babies and i knew they wouldnt
survive, i was given loads of pain
killers and injection in my thighs to
stop the pain. I was also given gas
which helped numb the pain. I felt the
urge to push and i gave birth to my 2
little girls, 13 minutes apart. The
girls were alive and they were
breathing but their heartbeat was
starting to slow down, our second
angel passed away almost 2 hours after
birth and our first angel passed away
an hour after her sister. I feel that
it is only right to give the babies as
much chance as possible and not take
thier lives into our own hands, God
gave my little girls and God took them
when they were ready to go. Both my
little girls looked exactly like there
dad, my second angel was alot smaller
than the our first angel, although
doctors confirmed they were not
suffereing from ttts. My daugter were
not forced out or nothing, they were
born naturally and they died
peacefully, no pain. i believe this is
the way it should be if babies are not
gonna make it. Please everybody that
goes through PROM, please give your
babies a chance. It is so difficult
when they are gone and it is alot
harder if you see them alive and you
hold them until they pass away in your
arms. This was the most painful
experience that i have had in my life,
and i feel like everything has been
taken away from me, so everyone that
is out there suffering from PROM,
please dont let your babies go, try
your best and hold on to them,
sometimes even the docters are wrong..
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