My name is Toni and my DH is Justin.
We were married in June of 2000 and
after about 10 months of marrage
desided to start our family.
Well after 15 months of TTCing on our
own I called an OB and set up an
apointment to find out just what the
crap was wrong with me.
Come to find out I have PCOS, and put
on 2000mg of Met aday. I was started
on Clomid and we did 6 rounds of
clomid and IUI's, all resulted in AF
showing up at 28 days. At this point I
was put on prozac, I was in really bad
shape emotionaly.
I found out that our insureance
covered IVF so we skiped injectables
and went right for IVF in the spring
of 2003. On Mothers day of that yr we
found out that with our first round of
IVF we were pg.. That could not have
been a better gift then gold.
4 weeks later we found out that we
were having twins. I was floored and
Justin was running circles around me
he was so happy. It took me about a
day to let it sink in that I was going
to be casing twins for the rest of my
life and I couldnt wait. I was ready
for them.
At 13 wks my nightmare begain. I had
brown spoting and was placed on bed
rest because my cervix we shorting,
until "my" OB was back in town. I was
seen by one of his partners.
My OB couldnt really tell that my
cervix was getting short so he sent me
back to work with weekly check ups to
keep an eye on my cervix. At 15 wks I
had funneled and was taken in on July
23, 2003 and given a McDonald
Cerclage.
At 17 wks my water broke and I went to
the ER because I couldnt get a hold of
my Dr. He finally got the message (and
by the way fired his answering servies
because of their screw up) and told me
to leave the hospital and come see him
first thing in the morning for an U/S.
(His U/S mechians are better then the
hospitals).
Our baby "A" (a boy) had not water,
and he had not heartbeat.. We lost
our Jakob. Our OB but me on Med's for
any infection that I might have and
sent me home. I just knew there
was not hope. ANd I couldnt stand the
thought that my little girl (baby B)
was all along now.
I tried to keep my spirits up, but on
Aug 17 I wasnt feeling so hot. I just
took it really really easy and tried
not to do to much. THat night I
started in with the worst pain I had
ever know up to that point in my life.
I went into labor.
We called my OB and at 5 the mornign
of the 18 we went to his office for an
U/S.
On the way there my water broke on
Jeneh. I knew I was dieing at that
point. When we got to his office he
could not find them in the utrise and
sent me to the hospital.
When we pulled up to the ER doors, I
steped out of the truck and Jakob
ripped throw my cerclage. But didnt
fall out. I tried telling the intern
but he just told me to sit down and he
was taking me to L&D.
Jusitn parked the truck and went in
the hospital throw the ER too. He
looked at the secrutiy gaurd and he
just pointed to the trail of blood I
had left on the floor and said that's
your wifes, if you follow that you'll
find her.
When I got into the room the nurses
were like get undressed. I tryied
telling them that I had delivered a
baby and they just told me to get
undressed. I took off my shorts and
Jakob fell into my hands. They all
flipped at that point.
When Justin got into the room they
were cutting Jakob's cord and trying
to get an IV in me. Jeneh was born 15
minuts latter alive. She lived for a
little bit and passed away. THere was
not a nurse in the room when she came
into the world.
I wanted to die at that time. But we
had a plan of a cerclage placed at 11
wks with our next pg..
We went back and did IVF in Nov of
2003. Found out that we were pg on New
Years Day 2004. But I had a large cyst
that was being watched and in Feb it
burst at 13 wks witch caused also PROM
and we lost another son, Andin, at 14
wks on Feb 17.
I was pissed off at the world and if
you ever wanted to see a PISSED OFF
woman I was it.
Well I was known for having long
cycles so when AF hadnt shown the end
of April I called my OB and they said
that its normal for AF to take up to 3
months to show. A week after I called
them I started putting 2 and 2
together and figured
out I was pg.. And I was. 10 weeks
along to be exact.
I had my McDonald placed at 11 wks,
and Dr apptmnt anytime I wanted.
Everything was going soo great. But at
20.5wks I went to the bathroom at work
and realized that I had just lost my
plug.. I called my OB and the nurse
told me to get in
there as fast as I could. I drove
myself to his office 45 minutes away
and met my DH there. I had hour glass
membrains.
I was placed in the hospital in
tremdelembug on July 20(one yr ago
today) to see if the membrains would
go back inside. Well the next day when
they took me in to
RE-place the cerclage the sac had
moved back up. They replaced the
cerclage with NOT one but THREE
cerclage stiches.
At this hospital there WAS a peri that
thought he was "God" also and
wanted to be in on the replacment
surgery, but had to go out of town.
My OB told me that I wasnt going home
and I was there till I deliverd. I was
fine with that.
On the 28th of July my OB did his
rounds and told me that this Peri was
going to come and do an U/S to see how
everything was going and see if we
could find out the sex of our baby. Up
until then we didnt know, the baby
wouldnt co-operate.lol.
I found out later that this U/S was
only to be a abdonmial one. BUt when
he came in he did not only a Vag U/S
but stuck speculems up me to see the
"Stiches" and then put his finger up
to "Feel" them also..
This put me into labor. WE battled
labor for about 5 days. But on Aug 3,
2004 my body could stand no more and I
stared hemreging. So we were told that
Lynli (we found out we were having
another DD) was coming and we could
have NICU do what
they could to save her. BUT at 23 wks
we knew that her quality of life would
be nothing for the rest of her life.
So we made the desicion as parents to
hold out Daughter as she took her fist
and last breaths of life.
SO at 2:46 that afternoon Lynli Rae
was born. She lived for a short while
and passed away in her Daddy's
arms.
I have done to much research into IC
now and now know that my cervix is to
short to have ever had a vag cerclage,
I wll have the TAC around 11 wks with
my next pg.
We have been blessed with two angels
sense lossing Lynli. But both have
ended in M/C at 7&8 wks.
We are currently TTCing and hopely
will be able to have that miracle to
bring home.
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