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We lost our baby girl on February 8,
2005. My water broke at 11:30pm on
Monday and I was taking to the
hospital. At the hospital they told
me that all my water had gone. The
baby's heart beat was high (163). They
had told me at 1:30am, Tuesday that
the baby wouldnt make. The heart beat
was still in the 160s and after being
induced the heart beat slowly started
to drop. My mother and boyfriend
watched the heart beat slowly drop
after being induced for 2 hours. The
next thing we knew the heart beat just
stopped and the doctors just took me
off the monitor. They told me that
they couldn't find that heart beat and
there was no need to be left on the
machine. I sat there in pain knowning
that my little girl wouldn't make it.
I had her at 4:47pm Tuesday. She was
1lb 1.4 ozs, 11 inches long. She came
out berch. The hardest thing was to
hold her in my arms knowing that I
could never hear her cry. The doctor
had told me that her skull had crushed
from being born berched. Which they
never gave me an option for a C
Section or to be induced. They just
induced me. Our baby came out fine.
She had her arms, legs, feet, and
hands. She looked so peaceful.
Beautiful as can be. I named her
Veronica Renee. When she came out the
doctor never caught her, instead she
just dropped to the bed. I felt they
could've done more. I sat in the
hospital in labor for 17 hours and
listened to other babies cry and never
got to hear mine. After my mom and
boyfriend told me that the heart beat
was dropping I never understand why
they didn't try C Section, I thought
they were suppose to do everything
possible to help the baby. Now Im only
17 and Im scared to have another
pregnancy for the fact of losing
another one. Can someone help me, try
to have me understand, or give me
hope?.
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