I still do not understand what exactly
had happened. It was a much awaited
pregnancy and I had slight pinkish
spotting right from the implantation
time which continued intermittently
till the 13th week. My baby was
closely monitored by ultrasound every
week till the 4th month. He was
growing perfectly alright. During the
10th week I got hospitalized for 8
days due to hyperemesis and went back
home happily as I improved so much. I
started gaining the lost weight back
and was all set for feeling my baby's
movements. Both my husband and me used
to talk to our little one and we used
to remind him how much we loved him.
We told him that we desperatley needed
him. I had been continuing my work all
these days. Finally that day came when
I felt slight pain in my lower
abdomen. I was so busy that day that I
could not pay much attention to the
nature of that pain. I went to toilet
many times and I felt my irritable
bowel syndrome is back on its track!
By evening I was really exhausted with
the pain which came in intervals. Then
I told my husband something is wrong
and I really didn't know how
contractions were like as it was our
first pregnancy. Then I went directly
to my hospital and met the OB/Gyne on
duty. By that time I could feel
something coming out through my cervix
and I could feel it with my hand.
Unfortunately I could not communicate
this to my doctor as he was not
knowing English. He did a pelvic exam
by inserting his hand inside and our
world came to a standstill with a pop
sound and sudden gush. He told me the
prognosis was very poor and they were
not able to do much to save my angel.
Next day I met my OB/Gyne and she
repeated the same words which the
other doctor told me. They told the
baby cannot be rescued as he was only
17 weeks old. I really was so ignorant
about pregnancy and the complications
associated as I had always been so
workaholic. Now I feel, apart from
loving my unborn I didn't do anything
for him wisely.
My WBC count was slightly high and
they told that infection could be the
reason for the pPROM. The next day
they started the labor inducement and
after two days, our baby came out to
this world as stillborn. He was alive
on the previous day morning also, but
very little fluid was left out inside
my uterus. I was told none of the
babies in such cases have been rescued
in the whole Japan. I started
searching the internet regarding this
only after I lost my baby, because I
wanted some support. But after going
through so many stories, I'm left with
so many doubts. I hope somebody who
goes through my story can clear my
doubts. If the doctor had not pushed
his hand inside, would the sac have
been saved from rupture? What were the
survival chances for my baby if I had
continued to take bed rest? Would the
water have been replenished on it own?
What's the first step done with a
patient who goes with contractions and
prolapse of amniotic sac? They told
that, on that day I had tried to move
my bowels many times and that would
have made the sac to come out, is this
possible? I hope I can get some
relief, if somebody answers my
questions.
My baby boy measured 20cm and weighed
135 gms. He looked perfectly alright.
We cremated him the next day of his
birth/death and still mourn on his
death incessantly. I do not want this
to be repeated in my life again. So I
want to take all precautions necessary
to stop pPROM in my next pregnancy.
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