This is my 2nd loss to PPROM. My water
broke both times while I was sleeping.
I felt nothing to warn me. Everything
had been normal with both pregnancies
until then. With our son, my water
broke at 20 weeks, and I delivered Rey
alive at 21.5 weeks (1/24/02). He lived
for about 15 minutes. We had a chance
to hold him and tell him we loved him
and just cry together as we held our
son. With our daughter, Sofia, my water
broke at 19w 5d and I delivered her
stillborn at 20w 1d (8/25/04). I'm
grateful I was able to baptize her in
utero, before we lost her.
The doctors have no explanation as to
why this happened -- either time. We
feel lost and hurt, and really scared to
ttc again. Not sure we'll ever find the
strength and courage to do so, but then
again, I don't think I'll ever feel
complete if I don't have a baby.
I don't remember how we got through it
the first time. Losing Sofia has just
brought back all the heartache from
losing Rey -- and then some.
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