I hope this is helpfull to someone.
I was pregnant with #2, under extreme
stress with a very active 2 yr old - a
husband who really at the time was
busy and not very understanding -
The day or two before Christmas, I
felt an odd sensation and went to the
bathroom, heard a pop and my water
broke. I freaked out and yelled for
my husband who then called my obgyn.
He told me to come to the office - and
he opened the office just for us, did
a test and confirmed it was the
amniotic fluid. I was then sent over
to the hospital.
they put my flat on my back - and
dosed me up with antibiotics - but
about 12 hours later the specialist
came in and told us the grim outlook -
we waited untill the next morning to
make our decision. By then our baby
had absolutely no amniotic fluid
remaining and was getting crushed with
the uterus. We decided the outlook
was so bad that we not continue - and
I was at high risk of infection. Had
the baby been in some fluid - however
this was a complete and full rupture
with basically no chance to seal over.
I did not want to risk infection and
not be able to have another baby - so
we delivered him and that was our
christmas 1996. I was so sad, so
numb - mad at myself what did I do
wrong? But nothing was determined to
cause this rupture.
To make a long story short, I got
pregnant 2 years later and had a very
rough pregnancy with lots of preterm
labor - but made it to 38 weeks!
I am NOW expecting again #3 YIPPY!!!
and am at 30 weeks currently. This to
has been a difficult pregnancy with
contractions etc. But I thank god I
made it this far - and if I did go
into labor my baby would be fine. So
each day is a blessing to me to make
it further along. I will never know
why or what was the cause - however I
know there are reasons for things -
and I cant beat myself up over
something that was out of my
control.
Just know your not alone - and god
blesses us again and again so for
whomever may be reading this - know
that its not the end if you lose a
baby to Prom - because a miracle might
be right around the corner!
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