My little angel Emily has gone to
heaven
yesterday on Jan 30, 2004.
It was a girl I always wanted to have
a
girl.
I had a big car accident that I was
lucky to survivied but by the accident
my water was broke (17 week of
pregnancy) and none of my amniotic
fluid
was left out I stayed in the hospital
a
week could not even move, even could
not
go to washroom as well, but the
miracle
did not happen to me. The fuild was
leaking everyday and did not stay in
the
sack, the doc told me probably I have
a
big tear in the sack that won't seal
by
it self. My fuild was always low 1cm -
1.8cm always lower than 2cm. But I did
not want to give up on this baby and
wanted to give baby at least of chance
that baby can survive so I wanted to
wait until 24 weeks, I've heard that
the
baby can survive after 24 weeks. But I
started to have some bleeding and
cramps
and fuild was flowing out even day
time.
I felt that something wasn't right.
And
the movement of baby was decreased and
I
could not feel any kicking about 3
days.
When I had an u/s the baby was not
growing since 18weeks. I decided to
deliver the baby and was hoping that
baby could survive b/c I was close to
24
weeks.
The labor started around 11:45am and I
delivered my little angel at 3:15 pm.
We
were expecting to have the late night
but the baby came out earlier than the
doctor expected.
But the little Emily did not make
though
the contraction when the baby was
born,
her heart beat was not beating as
more.
I hold her and hugged her and could
not
make her go until night and I finally
had to let her go.
She was so tiny compare to her age she
was 23 weeker and weighed only 520
g.
she was so much like her brother
Samuel.
I thank God for showing her sprite
going
away, I saw sparkly silvery powder was
flowing in the air about 5 seconds and
gone. I asked my sisters and my mom
that
they can also see the sparkly things
that in the air but they could not see
but I saw it very cleary and I felt
that
that was her soul taken by
angels.
Miracles happens but I guess not this
time for me and my lovely beautiful
baby
my girl Emily.
Bye Bye Emily I love you so much.
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