I was 19 weeks pg and my water broke. I
was so scared I knew that my baby could
not survive if I went into labor at
this point. This was our first child
and I didn't know what to would happen
next. I can remember thinking that I
was going to go into labor any minute
but nothing ever happen. I soked my
clothes so I changed and continuded to
leak the fluid. My Husband drove me to
my mothers house so she could go with
us to the ER. We arrived at my mom's
and I began to tell her what was going
on. We got into the car and they kept
asking me if I was hurting and nothing
I felt fine.I thought then well maybe
this isn't as bad as I feared. I saw
the ER. DR and he had the same question
(did I have any pain? and still
nothing) I stayed in the ER about 2
hours and he said that he was going to
do a nitrazine test to check for
amneotic(spelling sorry) fluid. He
performed the test,talked with my OB
Dr.and with in minutes had sent the
nurse in to dismiss me to go home. They
never checked for a heart beat and I
was told that my water had not broken
(Made me feel really smart) but also we
were relieved to know everything was ok.
We went home and about 36 hours later I
woke up with a really bad backach
(which is not uncommon for me so I
didn't think much about it). I began
to feel sick I descided to go to a
nearby county hospital so they could
check me out and make sure everything
was alright. The way I felt I didn't
trust my Dr.anymore I knew something
was wrong. I arrived the ER and about
30 minutes later I started having some
pain in my lower stomach. This being my
first Pg I can remember not even
relizing that I was in labor. I thought
hey this pain is coming going but also
thought this can't be labor it does
not hurt as much as it is suppose to.
Finally I get to see the OB Dr. he
checks me and says that I am 5 cm and
the Baby is already in the birth canal.
He gives us the bad news that there was
nothing that could be done for a baby
so early. The DR. did an ultra sound
and found that our child had already
died. I remember looking at my husband
as he droped his head and begin to cry.
My heart broke into a million pieces at
that moment. I looked at the Dr. and
said now what happens. He said well you
have two options we can hook up up to a
drip that will make labor really
intense and you can deliver the baby,
or I can do a D&C. I thought at that
moment that I could not go through
delivery and not have my child. That is
a decision I will always regret. I know
now that I could have held my child and
know the sex, and in some way said good
by.
I was taken to the operating room and
put to sleep to have the D&C. I began
to wake up in the recovery with the
pain of a needle being stuck into my
wrist. There was about seven or eight
Dr. and nurses standing around my bed,
one on my right was holding a bag of
blood and squeezing the bag while
saying something about getting to blood
in fast. Then I heard another saying
come on people this could go either
way. I then heard someone say BP 60/40.
I was so scared I tried to speek but I
could not make a sound. After about 5
minutes I said where am I, and the
nurse replied you are in the hospital.
I said I know, but am I in the
operating room, she said no your in
recovery. I was then taken to ICU which
was the worst because I could not sleep
and no one could stay with me. I could
only have 10 minute visits every 4
hours. The next day I was taken to the
OB floor to my room where I spent the
next 4 days with an IV for very strong
antibiotics. I haven't been the same
since and I don't think I ever will.
Thank you for reading my story!
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