This was my second pregancy with no
living children. My first pregnancy
ended at 11 weeks with a d&c (the baby
had died at 8 weeks). At 18 weeks, 3
days, I had been feeling "gas like"
pains all day long. I didn't think
much of it because that had been one of
my biggest pregnancy symptoms. Yet I
thought it was strange because the gas
pains were a lot lower. The next day
(18 weeks, 4 days), I was still feeling
the same "gas like" pains. I decided
that if they didn't get better, I would
call the doctor the next day. The pains
didn't get better, but they didn't get
worse either. I had noticed a little
bit more of a discharge that day, but I
was told that it was normal to have a
discharge during pregnancy and that it
would increase the farther along that
you got, so I didn't think much about
that either. That evening I decided to
play bingo with my grandmother. Right
before I left, I went to the bathroom.
I had to wipe 4-5 times due to the
increased discharge, yet it still
didn't occur to me that the discharge
could of been amniotic fluid (I guess I
thought I was being paranoid because of
my prior miscarriage). As soon as I
stepped outside of the building I had
PROM. It was raining and dark, so
nobody noticed. I drove myself home
(about 3 minutes) and told my husband we
had to go to the ER. His look was the
saddest thing I have ever seen in my
life. It breaks my heart everytime I
think of him that night. I didn't
realize at the time just how bad I
looked. I was drenched and bloody
(which I didn't know that I was
bleeding at the time). I have never
been so scared in my entire life.
The doctor was pretty negative and
didn't give us much hope. He told us
everything the baby would have wrong if
we decided to continue the pregnancy.
We had the most wonderful nurse who was
much more positive and continued to
remind us to believe in miracles. After
2 days in the hospital we were told that
we could induce labor or that we could
go home and wait it out. After alot of
thinking we decided to go home. We
tried to gather as much information as
possible, but I really didn't find
much. We were scheduled to go back to
the peri doctor on Friday (this was Wed)
to do a follow ultrasound to check the
fluid level. When we went back on
Friday, the doctor did the ultrasound.
I could tell immediately that there was
something wrong. He told me to undress
so that he could do a pelvic. When he
did the baby was already in the birth
canal, he said he could feel her feet as
she was breech. The doctor pretty much
freaked out and had me scared to death.
I was sent immediately to the hospital.
About 2 hours later at 12:27 pm on
October 27, 2000, I delivered our baby
girl (Brenna Marie) weighing in at 7 oz
and 8 1/2 inches long. We got to hold
her and say good-bye. She was
absolutely perfect. At least I know
there was nothing wrong with her, yet
sometimes that make it worse.
We are starting to ttc again, but I am
terrified. What if this happens again?
My peri doctor says he thinks I could
have an incompetent cervix, but he
won't say for sure. Probably because I
had a d&c with my first pregnancy with
his group. I would love to hear
encouraging words from anyone about a
subsequent pregnancy. Any suggestions
on what to ask my doctor or what to do
to prevent this would be appreciated. I
just wanted to become more educated in
case this happens again.
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